Up and down and thrown around

I had a really rough week last week (and a little before). I had three midterms and two civic band concerts. That doesn’t really happen to me very often. I usually have a while between each test, but this time it all just hit me at once. I did well though. I made a B on the Operating Systems midterm. I made an A on my Mathematical Statistics midterm. And, I made an A on my Theory of Computation midterm. I played okay at my first concert. And, I was on fire at the main concert; I probably played better than I ever have since I was in high school. It wasn’t easy. I studied 4 hours or OS and 6 hours each on the other two midterms. I also did quite a bit of practicing (as much as I could cram in). Hour-wise, at least a full day of last week was spent on preparing. I was very proud of myself. At first, I felt like I was just trying to keep my head above water with my hectic schedule. But, the last few weeks, I felt like I was on top of the world.
As many of you know, there was a little more to it than that. There was some sort of outside factor that was making me happy, and that happiness fueled the energy and motivation I needed to get through that. Only one of you (Heather) knows what that was. Unfortunately, I think that is over. I am very upset about it, and I just want to crawl behind a rock and stay there a while. I am so glad that I came to this realization this week and not last week. If this blow had happened last week, I probably would have been dropping my first class. Since this is over, there is no need for anyone to know what happened. Everyone who wondered, just forget about it. It doesn’t matter now.
I had rehearsal tonight. I had to sight read a four mallet part. I was doing pretty well, until a 5th note appeared!!!
My head hurts…