Midnight Posting

Well, this has been a pretty rough time. I just got through the longest work week I’ve probably ever had, and last day was the dreaded Black Monday. I got my first quarter exam back in Physics Lecture. I thought that I had completely bombed it, but I ended up making a ‘B’ on it. A ‘B’ is not an ‘A’, but it is still something I can work with for now. Look’s like I will just have to work a little harder in Physics. I am still holding a decent ‘A’ in Calculus. I just finished a quiz from Calculus that took a really long time to do. I had a quarter exam in Humanities Friday, and I am pretty sure I made an ‘A’ on it. I am really pushing myself a lot more than I would like to this term. Taking Physics and Calculus 2 at the same time is not an easy job. Yesterday was Valentine’s day. It was pretty much a drag. I went to work and had a moderate work load. Classes were not too hard today. I ask some of my college friends what they were doing for V-Day. The guy that sits in front of me said something… inappropriate. He basically said that tonight he’d include a bottle of wine when he plays with himself rather than the norm… Mmkay… There are worse things I guess. Lena looked very nice. I think she was dressed up for her boyfriend or something like that. I did not ask Nut if she was doing anything special with Joey, and I probably didn’t really care to know. Dr. Zayas, my Cuban Physics Professor, said something like, “Oh! I celebrated Valentine’s day last night.” Okay, he’s a tip: Don’t ask anyone what they are doing for V-Day. Just don’t! Those of you that I speak to me regularly know that I did something “sweet” for V-Day; but, it looks like that is probably going unnoticed. I told myself from the beginning not to expect for anything different to come out of it, but I can’t help but be a little disappointed. Like, maybe I just shouldn’t have done anything at all? Maybe I should have just saved my money and emotional resources? But, what’s done is done. I know that we reap what we sow, but maybe I’m really just not old enough to realize it yet, I suppose. Or, maybe I’m just too young for the reaping part to take effect. I just have to keep telling myself: If I just keep staying firm in the faith, keep studying in college, keep giving 110% at work, and keep making efforts to be “sweet”, and maybe… just maybe thinks will turn out just fine for me. Ever been in a tunnel so long, you couldn’t tell if there was an end to it? Still the biggest issue with me: I have trouble resting. I have trouble getting to sleep; and when I do sleep, its not peacefully. It’s hard to keep up with all these things when if feels like you’re falling apart. And so… we press onward.
And I picked up a tax form from the college today… Yippie…